I'm flippen so ugh that it just, you know....

What a flipped up day was going to something but I feel so ugh. Call me lazy or whatever. Never get help from family, any part at all. Complaining, yes I am. I have done my share of favors for the blood. Expectations when they are in need but according to them because I ended up with the house I was born in I am obligated to them. I owe them and its my duty. God people grow up. At astonishes me how in families you are expected to. Especially when your the youngest.

I have cleaned this house numerous times in my life and people can't understand it gets old. Even the ones I have brought into this world can not appreciate it. The scares my father has left on me and this mortgage I have inherited. Oh so easy my dear siblings. My thief and con artist. How quaint you would sell the organs from you own parents if it could make you the mighty buck. Harsh yes but see who you are.  My once sis who took care of me now expects me to be charitable, Took advantage and now holds God high. I can forgive but asking a lot to forget. And my second mother, demand er, never had a good thing to say about me. Follower of false accusations, and Expects me to jump but can't see that she is no better then I.

No hate just disappointment. To know that no matter what blood isn't always priority. I wish all there pride would somehow lower and they can see beyond there ignorant jealousy and realize that I am in the shit hole of life right behind them. This damn house means nothing its just another bill I ended up with that I didn't create. I better clean this house up soon before I get harassed some more. Its not to late to offer your help without me having obligations to you my dear blood.

Honestly it would be nice like my next door neighbors and others I have seen. Have a B.B.Q. and bring food as well as I make food here. Accept my friends and bring over your own. Talk, music, games whatever. Hell that wont happen in my family because I am cursed by my older siblings false accusations and rumors and jealousy of others. Sorry too you all my friend have been there for me. Like family. Its never too late for you my blood. Don't expect me to bent anymore unless you make the first move.

I love my family no matter what it doesn't mean I have to like them or expect them to love or like me....